Broken (in the best possible way) by Jenny Lawson
“If I could choose the themes of my life, I assure you this book would be all about my successful otter rescue and how I became a sexy vampire who isn’t allergic to dairy. But we don’t get to pick who we are. I am still as broken as I was before, but with better stories and a little more insight into just how fucked up I am.”
BROKEN (IN THE BEST POSSIBLE WAY)
As Jenny Lawson’s hundreds of thousands of fans know, she suffers from depression. In Broken, Jenny brings readers along on her mental and physical health journey, offering heartbreaking and hilarious anecdotes along the way.
With people experiencing anxiety and depression now more than ever, Jenny humanizes what we all face in an all-too-real way, reassuring us that we’re not alone and making us laugh while doing it. From the business ideas that she wants to pitch to Shark Tank to the reason why Jenny can never go back to the post office, Broken leaves nothing to the imagination in the most satisfying way. And of course, Jenny’s long-suffering husband Victor―the Ricky to Jenny’s Lucille Ball―is present throughout.
This book hit like that first cup of coffee in the morning. Even better, it was like the first cup of coffee with a cigarette in the morning. Back when I used to smoke, of course. Or maybe more relatable, the first sip out of a glass of cold white wine the minute happy hour strikes.
I guess what I’m trying to say is that this book was all kinds of good.
I listened to the audiobook and read the physical book for this review. I just kept thinking, Jenny Lawson really does always show up for us when we need her to. I recently read and reviewed Furiously Happy. It was my first time reading her work and I instantly fell for her, finding her so incredibly relatable on every level. Listening to her makes me feel warm and fuzzy on the inside, and she’s also downright hilarious.
In Broken, Jenny talks in detail about her TMS (transcranial magnetic stimulation) which she tried as a treatment for her depression. All the info out there on TMS is super scientific and intimidating to read so to have Jenny bring some casualness to it was so refreshing. Listening to her talk about her experience with TMS and how it positively affected her life brought tears to my eyes, “Today I feel strong.”
When talking about how good she feels, she continues, “I don’t want to lose it. It feels so shaky. Like holding on to magic you know can’t be real.”
I found Jenny’s TMS journey to be one of the best parts of this book, because it gave me hope for another treatment option, an alternative to the many medications I have to take daily to manage my own mental health.
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I also really related with a chapter called 'An Open Letter to My Health Insurance Company,' in which Jenny talks about the ongoing battles she faces with her insurer. She starts the chapter, “Sometimes I think you want me dead,” and goes on to talk about the struggles when it comes to having her medication and treatment costs covered.
“One of the hardest things to do when you have depression is admit that you need help and seek treatment. We are exhausted and hate ourselves and don’t want to spend time and money on ourselves, but we push through. We do the hard work. Then we are told that the only doctor you will pay for can’t see us for two months…”
I could dive into every chapter and tell you, as someone who is struggling with mental illness, how relatable it all was, but I won't, I’ll let you buy the book and discover how great it is for yourself. The things I mentioned were just some highlights I wanted to share because they really resonated with me.
In terms of the audiobook, it was remarkably special. It felt like a gift to have Jenny read her book to me. The pacing was fast, much like the mind of someone with anxious thoughts (I can say that because I have anxiety and I know how it feels), and at times I felt like I needed to slow it down. Overall, it enhanced the reading experience, and I’m furiously happy that I own the audiobook now, so I can listen to Jenny Lawson on demand.
All in all, Broken (in the best possible way), was the only medication I wanted to take when I read and listened to it. It was perfect, in the best possible way.
Disclaimer: I also took my prescribed meds.