Open Water by Caleb Azumah Nelson

'You're not thinking of the night you all found yourselves in her flat, your own attraction bright like a small flame. You're not thinking of the fact that that friend no longer considers you so, will not return your calls or text messages. You're not thinking of what it looks like. You're not thinking. You're feeling. You are in a memory of something yet to happen. You want to sigh with hunger sated. You want to hold her in the darkness.'

 OPEN WATER

Caleb Azumah Nelson's debut novel Open Water is centred around a romance between two Black British artists who find certain commonalities among themselves having both won scholarships to private schools where they struggled to belong. 

They meet in a bar in South East London - he a photographer, and she a dancer, both trying to make their mark in city that both celebrates them and rejects them. 


The characters remain unnamed throughout the book, and Nelson uses second-person narrative to invite the reader to become a part of the story. 

You and the woman meet in a bar, two days before 2017 comes to a close.

You feel you have never been strangers. You do not want to leave each other, because to leave is to have the thing die in its current form and there is something, something in this that neither is willing to relinquish.

Although the book represents a heterosexual couple, I can relate to this, and I don't think I would be wrong in saying that we all can. That feeling of not wanting to leave another person's side when we first meet them. The magnetic force pulling us closer together, the fear of disconnecting. 

The narrator is open and raw with his emotions and trauma, letting his tears flow like endless rain. When thinking of his grandma in Ghana who died: 

You lost your God so you cannot even pray, and anyway, prayer is just confessing one's desire and it's not that you don't know what you want, it's that you don't know what to do about it. You're on your knees, and the music has stopped and you're wailing like a newborn. 

Open Water asks what it means to be a person in a world that sees you only as a Black body, to be vulnerable when you are only respected for strength, to find safety in love, only to lose it. 

In an interview with The Voice, when asked what led up to him writing this novel, Caleb said he was writing a lot of nonfiction at the time about photography, music, blackness, and love. And about freedom, and where freedom can be found for black people. 

He signed with his literary agent in April 2019, and she suggested he write a novel, so he revisited these ideas of freedom to create a fictional narrative to house everything he was feeling at the time, and from there, Open Water was born. 

What I thought

'You are in a memory of the present. You are tumbling through a fever dream, surfacing only to plunge once more.'

The narrator refers to his time with her as a fever dream. I felt as though this novel held me in some kind of lucid dream.  

The book, a gorgeous love story, made me feel at times as though I was drifting off into a blissful sleep, although I was experiencing every word, every moment of it in slow motion, in a trance as I dreamt I was listening to Footsteps in the Dark by The Isley Brothers

It felt like falling in love on the first day of June, walking casually through the streets of London during golden hour, the sun's gorgeous rays whispering down upon me.  

Although it's clear love can come and go in an instant, Caleb's words kept me in a dreamlike state throughout the entirety of the book, mostly engaged but at times drifting.

Unforgettable, his prose poetic and lyrical. Open Water was a brilliant and impassioned debut novel.


Caleb Azumah Nelson, courtesy of Penguin

Caleb Azumah Nelson is a British-Ghanaian writer and photographer living in south-east London. His writing has been published in Litro. He was recently shortlisted for the Palm Photo Prize and the BBC National Short Story Prize 2020, and won the People's Choice prize. Open Water is his debut novel.

‘Let the trauma rise up like vomit, spill it, go on, let it spill on the ground, let go of that pain, let go of that fear, let go.’ - Caleb Azumah Nelson, Open Water

Open Water is available at Indigo and on Kobo. Check GoodReads for additional retailers.

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